Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
2 Corinthians 5:17
The year has been a whirlwind. I’ve made the most drastic changes in my life to date. Once again, I’ve lost friends and made friends. I’ve met a best friend and partner. I’ve moved a total of three times: to Portland, to Beaverton, and finally to settle in Hood River. I’ve driven 15,000 miles this year, sold or given away a slight majority of my possessions, quit two jobs and started two jobs. At the end of it, I’ve realized that there are really no “ends” in life, save one, and everything between no and then is just an opportunity for new beginnings.
God has been faithful to me. In more ways than the obvious material ways, such as jobs, relationships, etc, but in the intangible ways. I’ve learned a great deal about myself, immeasurably more than there was to know. I’ve seen Jesus’ hands and feet in my friends and family (especially my girlfriend) who have been patient with me when I’m fickle, obstinate, hard-headed and flat out dumb. Above all this, I’m simultaneously humbled and encouraged to know that I am undone. It can be frustrating to know you’re not finished, especially when all your life you’ve tried to be perfect. It’s humbling, if not humiliating, to continuously screw up in relationships, either between myself and other humans or between myself and God. It’s humbling to know that despite all my insufficiencies, my failures, my not-good-enoughs, Jesus has not only refused to give up on me, but he actively pursues me. It’s a love I can’t begin to understand, and hope to learn to imitate.
I’m not one for resolutions. I generally see them as opportunities to be guilty a couple months into the year. Specific goals can be helpful, and easy to attain, but I don’t want to reach for one rung of an endless ladder and declare myself done just inches from the ground. But there are many things I hope to achieve and attain to this year.
I want to be a better me. I want to care about my health and exercise, not because I want to impress someone, but because I want to be healthy. I want to cultivate healthy relationships. I want to avoid toxic relationships. I want to pray more openly, I want to love more fully, I want to give more recklessly. I want to risk more. I want to trust more. I want to climb more trees. I want to get lost. I want to see every single moment as a sacred opportunity. I want to wade in waters of redemption, and rest knowing my sins are paid in full. I want to live a life that reflects the grace given to me. I want to know healing. I want to offer forgiveness and mercy. I want people to see Jesus, not because I go knocking on doors, thumping Bibles, or shoving religion down throats, but because His love is seeping from my pores. I want to be new from the inside out. I want to be the new creation that I know I am.
Nothing is wasted. God is working. You are a new creation. The old has gone. Behold; the new has come.
Happy New You.
I have cast my anchor in the port of peace, knowing that past and present are in nail-pierced hands.
–Vally Of Vision