Black: the night that ends at last
Some clarifications on my decisions.
One of the biggest things I want to clarify to all of the concerned is that I really believe that, for once, I’m not running away from anything. More so, I feel like running to something, some opportunity somewhere. I feel fairly content in where I am right now (as you’ll see when I describe my cities of choice) but I also feel like I’m coming to a dead-end in a lot of ways that leads me to something new. I don’t believe this is an escapism maneuver, nor a “grass is always greener” mentality, but simply saying that there are a lot of awesome and wonderful places to see in this world with a ton of opportunity, and I want to open myself to as many as possible. This is a silly way of doing it, but I’ve always been kind of a silly person.
I know some people are a bit worried for me, or think I’m making a mistake, and.. well. That’s just it. I’m tired of being too afraid of making a mistake. Everything is a potential mistake if you think about it. I’m choosing not to let anything that I do be a mistake and making the most of whatever comes. Even if moving away sucks, God teaches the most through really sucky situations, so I don’t fear anything. We can chalk it up to character building.
So without further ado, here is my list of cities, accompanied by rationale for choosing each one. Note: I have a job lined up at all of these places. There’s finally a benefit in working in such a flexible industry, with such a national corporation. I have ideas for housing, and the biggest challenge would be finding a church body that I could connect to.
I’m sure a few people are cheering for this option. Staying here would still mean changing a few things around in my life, because there could be a lot of different opportunities for ministry and job advancement here. If I stayed, I’d still have to figure out roommate situations and all that, but I know I have several important people here that I should go about connecting with.
Portland is green and beautiful and totally granola. It’s full of outdoorsy people who love nature and love beautiful things. My dad came from Portland to Phoenix when he was a young adult, and it’d be fun to turn 180 and do the opposite of him. Also, there’s no sales tax is Oregon. How awesome is that?
This one is a little crazy because I’m going a bit on hearsay, but everyone who’s experience Colorado has told me that it’s my style — and from what I hear, it might be true. Awesome experience for the foodie in me, as well as local breweries everywhere. Again, a bit outdoorsy with gorgeous weather. Just around an hour away in Estes Park is Ravencrest, a Torchbearer Bible School that would give me an amazing opportunity to connect with and volunteer with a sister school of Holsby. One of my current manager will be transferring to the Denver CCF in a matter of weeks, and I would have an instant “in” there.
This one is a last minute throw-in. There was another city I was contemplating for a bit, but after prayer and some convincing from a friend (who happens to live in Little Rock) I realized I really was fairly uncomfortable about the other city, so this one took its place. From my brief visit to the South, I realized I actually am quite fond of southern hospitality. I’m told they have beautiful seasons, and have I mentioned my love for fried food and barbecue?
I have no idea what’s going to happen. It’s all really exciting – even staying in Phoenix seems exciting, because if I choose that, I know I’ll have a renewed vigor and passion for what I’m doing (or will be doing) here.
PLEASE keep praying for me, that the Lord is leading me, and even if you disagree with my decision making process, please pray that God’s will is done in my life.
And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left. Isaiah 30:21
Love you all. Looking forward to making a decision on Sunday. (Yikes.)